As a young woman in her mid-20s (I can’t believe I actually qualify as that), I’ve found that it’s difficult to escape all the judgment and expectations of those around me. From Victoria’s Secret models to beautiful women on Instagram, it feels like there is a lot to live up to. Sometimes it’s hard to feel confident when you don’t feel comfortable in your own skin. One day, you’ll be feelin’ yourself; the next, you can barely stand to put in any effort because what’s the point? However, over the past few months, I have abandoned this way of thinking. I’ve found the answer to, “what’s the point?”
Growing up, I was skin and bones. Now that I’m older and no longer an athlete, my body has changed. With age also comes expectations of success. I finished college last December, yet it took me nearly eight months to get a job. Why? Because I was not confident in who I was. Life was evolving much faster than I was ready for. This summer, I started off ridiculing my body because I was no longer as fit as I used to be and I was doing nothing about it; I lived in a disaster zone that you could barely even call a bedroom; and I was taking Netflix binge-watching to a whole new level. I could feel this pit in my stomach as I fell deeper and deeper into this hold that I had on myself.
One day, I grew tired of it and needed a change. I opened my laptop and began the process of applying for teaching positions. Next, I revisited the idea of re-joining the blogging community with a blog that I had started last year – this blog, to be exact! But I quickly noticed that I didn’t feel comfortable or inspired in my bedroom in the state that it was. I cleaned like I’ve never cleaned before. I even wrote a blog post about it if you want to read it here! But if not, long story short – I am in the process of creating a space for myself that makes me excited to continue blogging and take charge of other aspects of my life.
Today, I can proudly say that I’m practicing self-love. I used to think of it as loving who you are and just accepting that. But now I realize that it’s more than that. Self-love is caring for yourself whether you had a wonderful day or a terrible one. Self-love is loving yourself as you are, but allowing yourself to grow as a person. Self-love is buying a one-piece swimsuit because you feel confident in it, not because you want to cover up your stomach. Self-love is about putting healthy foods into your body, but still giving yourself chances to eat whatever you want because it’s your body. Practicing self-love has had a positive impact on my physical, mental, and emotional state, and I am so grateful that I’ve grown in the ways that I have. I can’t wait to continue growing and becoming the person that I am meant to be!